This is deep. I would like to die at night (in my sleep) aswell.
Early morning would be sick to have an attack or something,
because everyone is out the house and i'll be fighting for my
life, knowing help will only arrive after a whole day of waiting.
Having in thought I wouldn't be able to reach the phone ofcourse.
Or at the point where you reached the 'best' you could get out of
a great day. Cuz you know it will go downhill from there, so
it could end over there. Hope you know what I'm saying,
cuz I can't describe it in words xD